July 8, 2010

Guilt



Today was a totally lazy day. I had planned to clean the upstairs of my house today...the bedrooms, both bathrooms, put away all the folded laundry, clean up my scrapbook stuff...
and...
I did nothing of the such!!
I actually was full well planning on doing all of the above, until my 8 year old son said
"Mom, you are always cleaning! Don't clean today. You need a break. You don't ever take any breaks. You're 40, you get breaks now. I'm not going to let you clean today. You're an artist, make some art....less cleaning, more art!"
So, I decided maybe he was right. I decided to not clean. While I was thinking about what fun project I wanted to do today....I fell asleep on the couch and took one of those one hour naps where you are half sleeping and can still hear what is going on around you. So now it is 4:30 in the afternoon and I haven't done too much. Well, I guess I did do a couple of things...
*cuddled on the couch with my 8 year old
*took a nap
*took a few photos
*shared some Ritz crackers


*ate a can of tuna for lunch
*did one load of laundry
*ate a farm fresh peach
*observed my sons gluing wooden sticks together


So, let me tell you...I know it is okay to take a day off and do nothing, but for some reason, it makes me feel so guilty for wasting time. I wish I could just be lazy for a day and be okay with it, but I can't. I have my reasons for feeling guilty about the wasted time:
*I'll never get that time back
*only have just so much time on this earth
*make the most of each and every day
*when I don't have any time, I will be wishing I had this time
*don't delay, start today
*never take time for granted
If anyone has any thing to counter act the above reasons to not waste time, please let me know. Then maybe I can enjoy a day of laziness without the guilt.
P.S. I think I am going to go do something now.